Who am I...

I think my ranting should be focused on figuring out the answer to this question. The first thing that comes to mind is I am a youth volunteer. This takes up most of my time and I really am available to the kids 24/7. Most people run screaming from the building when they hear youth event. I say cool what time. I have found if you love them where they are they will respond. It doesn't take much. Today I am bringing ice cream to a student who isn't going to want to see me at first. This student is going to try to get out of it. Having opened up more then comfort level will allow for, there is now fear I will push farther then this student is ready to go. The hurting is obvious while I don't know why yet, I do know love is what is needed. SO I will gain 500 lbs having ice cream and showing up until this student is ready to trust me.
I think the painful experiences in my life are what make me a good youth worker. I can relate to feeling unloved and unworthy. I still battle these feelings. Satan knows this is my weakness and when I allow a seed of doubt to be planted he will attack.