Feeling a bit better

Thank you to all who are praying. I feel the prayer support and that has really helped me make it through the past couple of days.

I was also able to completely fall apart on my friend Chris this morning and sobbing for a few minutes did me a would of good. I have felt like crying like that for a few days but wasn't able to do it.

I was able to help some what with the funeral plans yesterday and that helped me feel like I was a part of it. My favorite psalm will be read and being able to contribute in some small way has given me a sense of peace.

The funeral is tomorrow and I really wish I could be there.


To me this is like loosing my little brother. I still can't get my head around the whole thing.

My heart just hurts it aches and I feel a little lost. I am not angry or any thing like that it just hurts in a way I can't describe.