I am still

feeling like I suck. I know this is hormones and that they are just out of whack, but that doesn't make me feel any better. I feel completely down and worthless. I know it is a lie, but not listening to the lie is getting harder and harder. I feel dead inside. Like nothing matters and no one matters. Like I matter to no one. Again I know it is a lie, but that just doesn't change how I feel.

I am going to try to motivate myself to mow the lawn. Maybe that will help me feel better.