I am at a place where I feel like God took my toy box and dumped it upside down. Then said ok, pick the ones you really want and put them away neatly, toss the rest, and then we will go shopping for more.
I really am at a bit of a loss for what to keep and what to toss. Family is a keeper that is a given. My mother pointed out that I have family pretty much everywhere. There isn't any where in the continental us that I would not be in driving distance to family.
Going to school is something I must do if I am to go where I want to, and where I feel God calling me to go with my life. Where and how to pay for it are the big factors to work out there. Not even sure where to begin.
The journey of the past year or so has helped me prepare for the major tossing out that I have done in the past few months. Learning to trust, learning to love, learning that no one is perfect and that a problem can be resolved by talking it out. Trusting that the person will still care even if in the end you agree to disagree. Trusting that God isn't going anywhere. Learning how to not take back control of my life. Yeah well still working on that one. Patients and waiting for Gods time is the other lesson that seems to be taking a bit of Gods effort to get into my thick head.
I guess the big question is what is here? What are the ties keeping me in this state?