random thougths from the past few days
That a simple prayer for a friend that is answered can give you unexplainable joy. I have prayed for my friend along with others and my friends prayer has been answered in a very definitive way. I have been feeling abandoned by God not seeing his hand in my life, seeing his hand in someone else's life is a reminder that he IS there even if I can't feel him in my life.
If you can't trust your family who can you trust? Well just because I can not trust my family I have learned that I can trust my friends. One of my relatives did some thing that was a complete violation of my trust and while that hurt it was not the be all end all for me as it would have been a few years ago. I talked it over with a good friend and processed my feelings over it. Now it is what it is and I have learned a lesson but it has not altered my life in anyway. Now if I could just do that with another relationship in my life. Sigh always more to learn.
Closure is an important of healing, if you don't have closure moving on is harder to do.
The book of Ruth is a small book with few words and a lot of lessons in it. Naomi felt completely abandoned by God. In spite of that God never abandoned her. Ruth's heart was moved to stay with her. In Naomi's life he placed the people to help Ruth to see her way out of the valley. I think God has put others in my life to love and support me through my valley. It may not be the exact type of love and support that I want and desire in my life but the love and support is as strong as the relationship I desire so much. I still feel very alone at times but I do know that I am supported prayed for and loved.
I am being tempted. God knows my desires but so does Satan and he will use those desires to tempt me away from God. Satan will use that to encourage me to put a wedge between God and me. I am the only one who can put the wedge there and I must do some thing about it.
I must really love my Mother, because there is a mustard yellow curtain hanging in my pink kitchen.
If you can't trust your family who can you trust? Well just because I can not trust my family I have learned that I can trust my friends. One of my relatives did some thing that was a complete violation of my trust and while that hurt it was not the be all end all for me as it would have been a few years ago. I talked it over with a good friend and processed my feelings over it. Now it is what it is and I have learned a lesson but it has not altered my life in anyway. Now if I could just do that with another relationship in my life. Sigh always more to learn.
Closure is an important of healing, if you don't have closure moving on is harder to do.
The book of Ruth is a small book with few words and a lot of lessons in it. Naomi felt completely abandoned by God. In spite of that God never abandoned her. Ruth's heart was moved to stay with her. In Naomi's life he placed the people to help Ruth to see her way out of the valley. I think God has put others in my life to love and support me through my valley. It may not be the exact type of love and support that I want and desire in my life but the love and support is as strong as the relationship I desire so much. I still feel very alone at times but I do know that I am supported prayed for and loved.
I am being tempted. God knows my desires but so does Satan and he will use those desires to tempt me away from God. Satan will use that to encourage me to put a wedge between God and me. I am the only one who can put the wedge there and I must do some thing about it.
I must really love my Mother, because there is a mustard yellow curtain hanging in my pink kitchen.
posted by Chris | 11:59 PM
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