Had a chat with my Dad

the other day. I was sort of in a I suck kind of mood. I asked my Dad if I was a big disappointment to him.

He said all the right things. He told me he loved me and that they just want me to be happy. He told me his is proud of me and that I am smart.

For some reason I felt a lot less of the I suck when we where done chatting.


The thing is I am still in the I suck frame of mind. I do know that I am not what my parents dreamed I would be. I am not even what I dreamed I would be. I hate feeling sad and I am sure it will pass. I think I even know what it is that has me feeling sad. I think I am going to bake some more bread today. Anyone want a loaf?