The word peace has many meanings, I think the one that I am forever looking for is number 5)Inner contentment; serenity: peace of mind.
What is peace of mind? How do you attain such a thing? There was a point in my life where I did not know what this meant or how I could possible attain it. I search high and low for the answer to this question. There are times where I forget that I already know the answer and still seek to find my peace of mind.
When your past jumps out to haunt you like a living nightmare, never knowing when it will choose to rear it's ugly head. It is hard to have peace of mind. Your mind is way to busy playing tricks on you and listen to the lies from Satan.
Satan knows where we are the most vulnerable, where we are the weakest. He know when to strike and how to strike so that if we give him that inch and listen to his lies we will never have the peace of mind we are looking for.
Sometimes the nightmare still strikes sometimes I have a flash of memory that feels like a knife cutting my soul. I hear the whisper of the lie. The lie that I am worthless and unlovable.
So what is different? How is it that all of that can still be there and I can find peace? I stopped listening to the lie and believed Gods truth.
I stopped trying to find my own peace of mind. I stopped relying on myself to find the answers. I took the things that haunt me and I gave them to God. He has lead me step by step ever since.
He has given me what I need to make it through everyday, he has given me the love of friends who tell me in all the ways that really matter that I have worth and I am lovable. Not just that I have worth to them but they remind me that I have worth in Gods eyes. Not just that they love me but that God really and truly loves me.
I still have the whispers somewhere in the back of my mind, I may never have peace of mind. I was never really looking for it anyway. See God gave me what I needed. He gave me peace of spirit. That peace is always there if I rest in him.
What is peace of mind? How do you attain such a thing? There was a point in my life where I did not know what this meant or how I could possible attain it. I search high and low for the answer to this question. There are times where I forget that I already know the answer and still seek to find my peace of mind.
When your past jumps out to haunt you like a living nightmare, never knowing when it will choose to rear it's ugly head. It is hard to have peace of mind. Your mind is way to busy playing tricks on you and listen to the lies from Satan.
Satan knows where we are the most vulnerable, where we are the weakest. He know when to strike and how to strike so that if we give him that inch and listen to his lies we will never have the peace of mind we are looking for.
Sometimes the nightmare still strikes sometimes I have a flash of memory that feels like a knife cutting my soul. I hear the whisper of the lie. The lie that I am worthless and unlovable.
So what is different? How is it that all of that can still be there and I can find peace? I stopped listening to the lie and believed Gods truth.
Luke 1
78 Through the heartfelt mercies of our God,
God's Sunrise will break in upon us,
79 Shining on those in the darkness,
those sitting in the shadow of death,
Then showing us the way, one foot at a time,
down the path of peace.
I stopped trying to find my own peace of mind. I stopped relying on myself to find the answers. I took the things that haunt me and I gave them to God. He has lead me step by step ever since.
He has given me what I need to make it through everyday, he has given me the love of friends who tell me in all the ways that really matter that I have worth and I am lovable. Not just that I have worth to them but they remind me that I have worth in Gods eyes. Not just that they love me but that God really and truly loves me.
I still have the whispers somewhere in the back of my mind, I may never have peace of mind. I was never really looking for it anyway. See God gave me what I needed. He gave me peace of spirit. That peace is always there if I rest in him.
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