Another sleepless night. I know that pain is part of my life and that I need to learn how to deal with it, sometimes it is so very hard. Tonight the kids will be here for a movie night. My house is a mess and I still need to make a cake for one of them, he is moving, I am out of toilet paper too. I will be a wreck by the time they come if I have not managed to sleep. I don't want to be cranky or short tempered with them. They really are a great bunch of kids.

I hate feeling this way. Is that wrong? God could heal me if he wanted and yet here I sit and suffer. Is it wrong to pray that it goes away. TO be angry sometimes that this is the lot I have. God is so good to me I feel like a heel to be angry when I feel this bad.

I can't take anything more for the pain until mid day. I was happy they kicked in and I was able to make it to youth group last night. Now I just have to hang in until I can take them again.