The results of my night

Around 2pm today my friend dropped her 14 year old daughter off at my house so that would could have some more bread therapy and talk about the issues in the girls life. The girl did about 90% of the work and her bread came out good. One spot had gotten a bit hard and I didn't remove it all as I thought so there was a tough spot in the bread but other then that it was tasty and look pretty good.

We talked for hours about God life forgiveness and and the unnamed thing that we where able to name and start talking about.

Great day of YM. Through it all I felt like a hypocrite.

Last night the mother of the teen came over because I wanted to ask her if she was alright and I wanted to share with a friend how I have been feeling. We talked until 12:30am and had only touched on what is going on in her life. At the end I gave her the 5 min version of what is going on with me and we agreed to get together tonight.

I returned the girl home and join the family for a lovely dinner. Then my friend and I went out to run an errand and find a place to talk. We ended up in a parking lot. I unloaded my heart and for the first time was completely honest with someone about how I am. I was able to put a name to a few things that until tonight I don't think I was able to.

There is power in a name, by putting a name on it I am able to see it's face and know what it is I need to conquer.

My friend made a commitment to me that she would pray for me everyday. There is relief in knowing that.

I am going to take a bubble bath and try to sleep. Maybe just maybe I will tonight. I do have a sense of relief just from having opened up to someone. Sleep would be a wonderful thing.