I just don't want to talk

Good intentions can be hard to take when you are going through a hard time. I told several people today that I am really not ready to talk about what happened to my friend. I am in shock. I am not ready to deal with it. I am just numb. When I am ready to talk I will talk. I know God loves me but I just don't want to hear it right now. I know that the 23rd Psalm is comforting it has been suggested to me by more then one person today. I don't want to read it right now. I am not ready to be comforted. I just don't want to think or feel right now. When I am ready I will. I need to process in my own way. Thank you all for the prayers.

I just don't understand

What could make a person so sad that they go home and hang themselves? In this case it was lost money. I just don't understand how money can be that important. I am just in shock and at a loss for words to describe how I am feeling.